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1st Failure

I wish I could have had a different title, something like good news at the end of the wait, or anything positive for that matter, but my beta HCG test was done today and there was no pregnancy. My good quality BB embryo had failed to attach. I was thinking before that the embryo had only one job, and this was a 95% viable embryo... anyway nothing can be done about it right now other than preparing for the next cycle.

There's a lot going through my head now - what if the second one also fails? What can be our next options? Should we worry about ovarian reserve? Consider embryo adoption? My husband reminded me that this is a process and we must deal with a little detachment if possible.

I am trying to stay positive for the next cycle and telling myself that this is just a part of myself. My entire existence is not guided by my uterus!

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