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Today is Friday, but I am going to work tomorrow. As a software engineer, I really shouldn't complain about work because of the flexible hours and work from home benefits we get. But, like a spoilt employee, I still don't like the thought of working on a Saturday, poring over logs as they trickle down showing (hopefully) a successful transaction. I will get a day off because of it, but still tomorrow I need to work.

I have a Nuvaring currently have inserted inside me that is supposed to give my ovaries a break from egg production before they are injected with hormones to create enough eggs to fill up a Costco sized egg carton. That Nuvaring, however, caused some side effects and had me spotting in the middle of my cycle. I have never used any kind of hormonal birth control before, and as my periods come like clockwork, I never saw any mid-cycle bleeding either. So, as you can guess, I was not very happy this evening.

On days like this, positivity doesn't come easily.

But then, the ultimate source of positivity lies within us. If we talk about IVF in a negative manner, like think of the unfairness of life, or think of why am I going to the untimely bleeding, poking myself with hormone injections, or doing a bunch of things that goes against Nature and basically mess up our bodies, then we will be depressed and it will affect our health and the entire process. On the other hand, even though it is tough, we can fill ourselves with hope. Sometimes, suddenly, maybe while at work or doing something random, I suddenly feel that in just a few months, I am going to experience something close to a miracle. It shakes me up from within, like a snow globe, and fills me up with glitters. The more we exercise a part of our brain, the stronger it will get, just like building muscles. So, the more positive thoughts we bring, the more positivity will be within and around us.

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